Important Note

Probably she wants to extract fans like me from her life and longingly replace it with an abused baby.

If she wants more attention, it's not time for a baby.  She seems pretty mature as Jensen, but in real life she seems to have losened the strings, as people do.  I dunno, if you found out something new, would you have a baby?  What about the history of ballerinas not being allowed to have babies as ballerinas??  I am more concerned she should have 1, but at the same time I just think her husband is opposites attract.  I don't know if I'll like the baby's mix.  I think she'll give the baby attention over her fans and still expect to be able to act.  That's not what movie acting is.  It's not Juilliard or Bank of America.  It's making a statement with people doing all this stuff for you to permanently be rich and have a say in the world.  If you start to ignore it, you lose the position.  I've rehashed this significantly in my life recently.  No, she is not too mature.  I mean as in not too too mature.  Like it's like she's still a kid, though at her age you'd think she'd be more mature in a lotta ways. How can she have a baby and not mess up stuff for the rest of us when her life is so lackadaisical?  No one wants your baby.  We'd love her and hope the best, but what it is is what it is..  You may think you're that special 1 who's all perfect, but the truth is you have some presonality extremes, you have what I get blamed for or call mood swings.  You're gonna expect us to pay any attention to your baby.  Orla Fallon hasn't even shown her face!  The truth is we don't want to know you to take care of a baby.  We're fans of you, and your boyfriend is not your husband.  You simply don't know anyone else.  And I am sorry, sure we'd play the role of respecting and watching your baby.  I wanted to be a music teacher.  I'd love it.  I must also note Johnny Depp supposedly is having another child with his new girlfriend.  I do not approve because I think that they were showing off.  What else did I say that was too mean and choppy?  Well, I mean no offense, just having a hard time writing this.  I've never crossed my langauge barrier.

You can have a baby.  But what if you really don't like your boyfriend enough to combine souls with?  I combined souls but not with you.  It makes sense, but I think that you're gonna go bye bye as in you won't really prioritize right in the world and think that when you're stressed you just use your kid sorta, like sorta retreat to your family rather than be in the world and you think you can come out whenever you want then when you've not accomplished much in interaction, people who'd love you, kids, people who'd admire your style.  Like, you should find a boy that you retreat to a snuggly home where he'd do anything for you, not someone who's immature and still a kid and enjoys playing like he's a brat.  I guess for you young people that could come up calculated as a dream come true.  Your "boyfriend" is fun, but you haven't gone and said you know him for like guiding you.  I know some *** girls don't like that.  My other problem is mainly no I don't have an interest basically in taking your time but am sorta complacent about how much actors think their fans mean anything.  Like, if we wanna say something, like you shouldn't mind and just say it's wrong.  They just have kids and prance around Hollywood, thinking like they want their kids in private whereas other kids wanna act.  Also, a baby is hard to take care of.  Most actors don't quit.  I do not want your baby, I do not want a boyfriend.  If I have a baby, it's with a husband.  See, I'm more strict than you, no offense.  That's what I thought with Ellen about a baby from Portia.. you know, a baby is a big deal, you can't ship your cares away.  It's fine with me, but something I said kinda hit home.  xp  I did say I want you to settle down, but there's something funny like about what your fans would think.  I can't remember now and I've written or spouted a bit to recollect.  I guess I wonder why you use your hair color to define yourself and your boyfriend is different.  You can settle down, but if you do, I mean your husband is not like as famous as you.  It's not like we'd say oh it's Tim Burton and Johnny Depp and not even it's Johnny Depp and his family with Vanessa Paradis.  I am not interested in Amber Herd, and contrary to popular belief not in Helena Bonham Carter especially though she seems like a friend.  Yes, I respect your boyfriend and sorry if this disses your relationship with your friend or whoever he is to you, partner.. He's just in different shoes like most poeple.  I mean, I'm pretty picky but interested in anyone.  I can see where you're coming from.  I mean, do you have a lot of bf's?  You do seem picky in a different way than me.  I would not mind marrying someone unpopular even I've thought before and would take care of their kid..  I don't seem to be able to make my kid how I want cuz the boys are different.  I would have a bond and relationship with the dad, though, so no issues there to speak of.  You seem to be using your bf as an intellectual opportunity, perhaps your match now, but don't say oh I have to be with someone from a minority race.. you could.. but I thought you did it for love not ethnicity.  I just think that anyone would be interested in you.  I have an interest in you, so you know.  If I were a boy, we could marry, but I'd probably encourage everyone not to do anything like that.  So, I mean I am there for you and want to help if you want to have a baby now with him.  I just know the fans will whine.  We like seeing you, and I actually hope to meet you.  I feel like an equal, though.  I can see where you're coming from with people.  I mean, like I wish like there were Chloe Sevigny events for fans and I could go, something like that.  I do want to know real people as personal friends.  People don't do that, these days!  My old friends only had each other.

Another note, I think people are sloppy in Hollywood with their kids, may as well wait until they're 45 and boys 50.  You know, I may never have kids.  There are so many people in the world already who need to feel special.  I don't know what that ^says^.  I do have another question.. I guess I just see lotta people go by like Burton's daughter .. but do you consider your mom a good mom?  Perhaps, that affects me, when people I like make families of their own.  It's so weird, and then they don't talk to me.  Also, my mom is older than you.  You're like 10 years older.  Not sure why I said that now.  I think you're responsible enough to have a kid.  It might be a lotta work, and you'll find you're all about your kid and boy had you better like the kid.  I have this problem with my parents, but lotta people used to like me before Tim Burton and Johnny Depp.  I guess the fact is your bf is just a bf and I feel you'd think it an announcement to have a kid, more for the glamour than finding meaning in life with a nice boy who likes to lay out naked mostly on the beach and is rich and accomplished from doing right, rich enough to have a nice hose and furniture.. though guess that won't be a problem.  *beams*  I mean, just because you're bf's does not mean you need to marry.  My friend did that from someone since we were 11.  I don't know.  You just seem to have the same issue I have when I shop for clothes and other situations.  Don't take that negatively.  Just because he's nice, does not mean anything unless there's something I don't know about.  I mean, is it hard for you to find friends?  Cuz you could be my friend.  Will your baby replace him, too?  Sorta borrowing from other relationships?  You think the baby is you, and maybe you know you want 1 and will find this out hopefully before you decide to have a baby.  I just know that it's disappointing when a celeb grows up.  Still, it would be nice for you to sort out your feelings and not be so like crazed.  I think a good boy would make you a good girl.  Your bf seems like a fun bf, but that does not mean you have a baby or marry.  You decide that separately.  I can't tell you what to do but that that is a peave of mine.  Bad people do that stuff and you know it.  You don't have to copy them to find out why it's right.  I know you are patient, but the baby will replace your fans and your fame.  If they replace your fans, it could replace your fame.  I think 2 things, though.  I think that you're too young as a person but as far as Hollywood better to have a baby sooner if you find a husband, which you haven't.  It seems that since your fame you are settling down.  Do you even have a lotta friends?  Do you want a baby and have nothing else in your life that you need?

Okay

He acted like he knew it would be my birthday, but I didn't want the post to be associated with it.  I couldn't do anything about it, and the thought sorta slipped my mind after like holding my breath.  I feel like a picky black person honestly maybe for a thing like this analyzing something where I wasn't the bad guy.  Why did Tim Burton even talk about it like that?  Now, I can't get these thoughts that hurt people outta my mind.  I don't want to continue them after I get them, so I stopped it, yea.  My neighbor is onto me, and it can be so annoying people thinking they're right.  He doesn't know my birthday, neither.  So, Ellen might have had it told to him.  By the way, why is it so hard to type since hitting the table so hard because of Ellen?  She thinks that's the way the ball bounces, no pun intended?  Is it funny for everyone?

Apology

Since you're so sensitive, something upset me.  My neighbor was being annoying.  I thought Ellen told him to do it.  I didn't even know if I could post about it so got mad.

Issue

Why is Chloe Sevigny working with those 2?  1 of them reminds me of how my dad made me look, born a year after him.  I didn't use to look like this and only some pictures have a resemblance. Funny, my aunt looks like that, too, 3 years younger.

I have great respect..

After I came back from seeing Ellen, she acted like she called me a nigger by bringing a half black guest on her show and 2 Tai children.

Pretty Nasty

Go in and change my personal life for the lies of Ellen DeGeneres.

Problem

They're being all weird talking to me meanly through the computer for Ellen.  All this stuff for Ellen.  No one has a right to frame me and get everyone to think I'm bad.  I guess it was Orlando and it got around.

Question?

I was just feeling upset.  So, I wrote it down.  What's such a big deal?  I said sorry even when I did it when I was especially mean-sounding.  I wasn't nasty like there to approach people, just do defent myself.

Issue

Ellen doesn't want anyone to talk to me and is working on finding people I don't like to talk to to make me feel guilty.  So what if I used curse words?  I was mad at the noises she put in my room.  She had coordinated something pretty mean.  She's so annoying we can't trust her.  Anyone would know it's something specific that she is mean to me, not that anyone ever told her what to do with her show in this situation.  If someone used to be nice and now is teasing you, it isn't nice.  If she wants the show more about her or her guests, no one said anything against.

Weird

I feel less silly since seeing Ellen.  Normally, that'd mean less silly for her, but she shouldn't get more than just a little amount of silliness, should not plague her long.  I'm worried.

Problem

I can't see why anyone would ^approach^ me, near or far, at "The Ellen DeGeneres Show."  I can't put a bullet to my head.

Why..

Can someone tell me why I get in trouble for saying someone hurt me, and Ellen doesn't for anything she does?

Issue

Ellen says something, and we are stuck in private knowing what she said.  She has a life surrounded by people and work.

What I Told My Mom

It would be fun to see Ellen every day for a week.

Twitter

I'm two episodes behind on #ThoseWhoKill on @LMN. But I hear Glen Morgan is killin' it (literally) with these eps.
— CJ (@ResQ51Kmg365) May 12, 2014

Ellen DeGeneres follows him.

Bringing up the Past

Not particularly meaning me on Ellen, but when you are mad or bad what do you think of bringing it up, later?

Question

Should I just stay home and work to buy stuff and wait to be an actress?  Seems to be the plan.  Or I'd be busy with school too much for Ellen!  but even on the show you don't really or aren't supposed to do stuff like other than sorta do it from afar which makes me feel funny and like I wish I could also be in college..  That was a mistake, though.  I did go to college and ended up kicked out, seriously, not told to leave, but made to feel guilty somehow.. the teacher never told me anything and this dude had me leave when he said maybe give me a chance.

I guess in college, I felt that sense of importantness you get in school.  I think I should just not go to college now if I wanna be an actress.  I have a chance.  I won't be an extra but possible someone with 1 scene could be okay.

Problem

When I post to Ellen, they act like I'm not supposed to for certain reasons.  They just want me to go hysterical all the time like I have to worry about everything.

Felt Bad There

Ellen can't get her listening to my dad is mean.  How can I even look at her?  My mom was just being mean again.  I'm not into Ellen's punishing stint of me.  Is that because of Johnny Depp?  You know, he has a family who probably don't like him to be the instigator of other's ways.  You know, my dad was also funning me.

Why should I feel guilty for cursing about the noises in my room and being upset in particular at Ellen for acting like she's punishing us?  I bet it's something like we're not young enough to be her kids.

I was actually mad at my mom but moreso that people are saying I used to curse at Ellen all the time, I guess her = the noise.

More

She almost came up to me when we were dancing.

She stood up where I was possibly twice.

I think she almost fell over from my screaming.  I screamed high but not shrill.

I was dressed all in pink.  I had to use a nice sweater I found that was a rich darker pink over a light hot pink.  I was so dazzled the 2nd lady guest wore a light hot pink dress, as well.  She's an old friend sorta.

Ellen had indents on the side of her face like above her temples.  I could tell when she was on the other side.

Sorry - There I was!

Next time, I'll say I'm going to be absent.

I was in LA in the audience of "The Ellen DeGeneres Show."  I flew there and back in a day.

It was so amazing to see Ellen in real life, though she doesn't seem very real.  It's hard to remember what she was like.